My Current State

I haven’t written much this year. Not compared to the past six years. And I’m sorry I haven’t read much of my fellow bloggers’ posts. You all have wonderful, interesting posts. It’s nothing personal. I’m just feeling off.

I am currently sitting on my porch swing. I used to write a lot from this old swing. That was back when it was painted red and sitting on the porch of my little brick home in a little hick town of about 500 residents. I’m thinking that number included the exuberant amount of feral cats as well. Much to my dismay. 

Now my swing is painted a milk chocolate brown and sits on the front porch of my cabin. What a lovely view of the pond and woods and nature. 

I haven’t written much from here because I write mainly inside the house or cabin. I’m sitting out here today though, listening to the wind blow through the trees and the distant sound of a train passing through town. Finally, a day of no rain. 

We were hit by the derecho that blew through Illinois, Indiana, and Ohio last week. We lost our most favorite trees. I find it terribly sad to lose them. Our trees mean quite a bit to me and D. But our home, barn, and cabin were not damaged from what we can tell. Hopefully, nothing will leak later. The hail stripped the field of corn south of our driveway. The poor leaves are just shredded. Many people, though, suffered much more than us with the relentless storms, heavy rain, wind, and flooding. 

On another note: I’ve had pneumonia this summer which has tried to make a comeback for a second round. There’s no rhyme or reason as to why this is. And I’m plagued with physical issues which cause me pain…pretty much on a daily basis. But I’ve found a new doctor, and between him and the helpful things I’ve been learning online, I have high hopes for great for healing. Actually, I feel I have made progress already.

But, I’m not gonna lie. All of this has dampened my spirit and robbed me of my inspiration to write. It’s difficult to keep my chin up when I’m fighting, fighting, fighting to live pain-free on a daily basis.

Enough of that. 

I am very blessed. All I have ever desired in my life is here with D. I have everything I need, plus more. There are some obstacles to overcome, mostly all physical, but I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else.

This is my current state. 

With that being said, I still have the desire to write but I will need to dig deep to find my inspiration.

So this has been another off summer for me. I believe it will turn on again very soon. Maybe by fall, perhaps? My favorite season…

I am hopeful.

♥️

Andi