Making up my mind isn’t always the easiest. In fact, it’s downright hard. I have made many rash decisions in the past. Many wrong decisions and a handful of good ones. But even in the wrong life choices, things still came out pretty good. And while I can say that now, it is truly only because I learned so very much. Learning is almost everything. Learning is made perfect when you live what you’ve learned.
I was asked a week ago today to pray about a situation I am currently in. A decision I need to make. Oh, man…I struggled all week with it. God show me. Just show me what path to take. Please.
It wasn’t until the weekend when it all came together. And I can honestly say that I’ve been at peace for the last four days. Would I have enjoyed a more peaceful last week with a more rapid answer to my prayers? Probably. But I wouldn’t have maybe appreciated it as well I did after days of prayer and struggling.
I made a decision and it’s the right one for now. Not that it’s going to be easy by any means, but it is the right one for all concerned. I feel better about myself. A burden was lifted. The pressure I had put on myself was intense. I realized just now while I am writing this how we treat ourselves so much worse than we would treat a dear friend. I wouldn’t dare burden a friend like I do myself. After all…I love my friends. But we are told by God to love ourselves because we are His creation. I used to think that was wrong. That it was selfish. But we must treat our person with respect and dignity. Not in an arrogant, conceited manner, but with love.
God has gotten me through the darkest of places. He loved me when I was unloveable. When He had every reason to walk away from me, He stayed. Even when I walked away from Him! He picked me up every time I fell…although sometimes He let my lie in the filth for a bit longer until I softened my own heart. But He was always there, never far. I know these things. I’ve seen how his loving arms have held my life. I’ve worried and I’ve questioned. All for naught.
I’ve been learning a lot of life lessons since my Dad’s passing and with troubling and difficult situations since then. But it’s all coming together…finally. I’m easing right into God’s arms and finally realizing the warmth, peace, and safety in being close to Him. This is right where He wants us to be.
I hope that we each find the peace that surpasses all understanding. It’s a beautiful place. ♥️
Philippians 4:7 ESV
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Photos: all mine. Sand Beach, Maine, 2015; in my woods; Big Long Lake; Italy, 2012