I just can’t imagine life being harder than it is this right now, but I know it certainly could be. I don’t know how to handle each day and I’m feeling pretty lost. Crying is as routine anymore as brushing my teeth and washing my hands.
I cannot say that there isn’t something sinister going on in the world currently. I’d like to think that the politicians and big moneymakers are truly compassionate about the people of the world but I’m beginning to have my doubts. Isolation breaks people. It breaks their spirit and their health. I feel mine weakening. There’s so much that doesn’t make sense and my mind just cannot comprehend it all. My heart hurts. I’m lonely. And I’m emotionally exhausted.
I want to fix things and make everything better and I cannot. It’s quite troubling to me. I feel trapped, like a caged animal. I want to get in my car and just go. My energy is fueled by coffee and anxiety as I don’t sleep well lately.
I am aware that God’s blessings still abound. And I am so grateful. I really am. I cannot imagine how much worse I’d feel if I didn’t have Him in my life. I know I need to rely on God even more and this is a challenge for me. Visiting with my residents at work today has lifted my spirits some. They are treasures.
I will pray for you, my friends, and I ask that you pray for me as well. Pray for those who are sick that they be treated properly and with utmost care. Pray for those who are doing the treating.
Thank you for listening to me. I’ll be fine. No worries. I always bounce back like Tigger.
I need another cup of coffee. And a nap would be good right about now.
Always be grateful. Even when life seems bleak. ♥️
Photo: Amarillis Lily, 2020