A Piece of Humble Pie

I’ve been MIA. Yes, it’s been difficult for me to write. Not that I don’t have anything to say because I do. I always have something to say. I like to think that in the past I’ve had important things to share, like hard lessons I’ve learned with hopes that sharing might help someone else along the way. I have wanted to lift up and inspire. But for the past six months…well, I’ve been humbled. Greatly. I discovered that I’m not invincible. That I’m not as smart as I thought I was. So maybe I have learned a hard lesson after all.

While I sat back eating a large piece of humble pie slathered in whipped cream, I watched and listened to others do their thing. It doesn’t matter who a person is…a politician, a healthcare worker, clergy, a Christian, a friend, a foe, right or left, etc., no one has all the answers. Not all the correct answers anyway. Even those with the best intentions and convictions can be wrong. Like me. I guess I didn’t feel worthy to write. 

I didn’t take care of myself as I should have. There. I finally said the quiet part out loud. Thinking my own smartness was going to keep me healthy and infallible was my first mistake. No single person has all knowledge and all the correct answers.  Life is about continually searching for truth in every aspect of our life. And that means research, research, research. It also means not being totally closed off to new ideas and suggestions. 

With all that transpired since June with my infection, my biggest takeaway is this: there is much pain with the lack of movement. Now I understand more fully why the elderly hurt so much. Especially those who are wheelchair bound or bedridden. Lack of movement causes pain. 

I did not feel well. With my tooth infection, inflammation spread like a wildfire within my body. I did not, could not, move. I’ve never experienced anything like this. Atrophy happens quite rapidly with lack of movement and I’ve only gotten weaker and weaker over the months. The weakness throughout my lower body has felt like the worst body ache you can imagine from the flu. And it never went away for months. 

The infection is now gone so now I’m starting over from scratch. I’m gently trying to build strength and endurance without irritating arthritis in various joints. I’m trying to push through the body aches. I bought the Waver by LifePro, which is a vibration plate, and also a slant board. I love these. I started feeling better immediately. I just have to remind myself…baby steps. I was always an all-or-nothing girl. I would jump in with both feet and not allow myself any slack or grace. I’m learning more about being kinder to myself. I also do daily trigger point therapy with lots of icing. It’s all time consuming but very necessary if I want to have a normal life. Actually, I’m striving for better than normal. It’s good to have goals. 

So there you have it. This is where I’m at. I can write about all this today because today is a good day. I do feel I’m on the upward swing…finally. 

I actually just now discovered that there is such a thing as humble pie.

The ingredients in my “humble” pie are not as tasty as the recipes I found online so I don’t recommend my recipe. Regret, arrogance, pain, guilt, and humility don’t make for a tasty pie…no matter how much whipped cream covers it.

I want this to be the last post about my troublesome year. I’m over it. I’m done with it. I am looking forward to a great 2026. 

♥️

Andi