A Day of Reflection

It’s been difficult to write lately unless something extraordinary inspires me. Like heroes in my last posts. 

July was simply not a good month for me. It was a month of pain. Physical pain. I spare you the details of my physical wellbeing. Let’s just say it’s a month I wish never to repeat. Although I’m still not where I want to be, or where I should be, I’m better than just a couple of days ago. Maybe soon, I’ll feel like socializing and being a part of this world again. Today, though, is not that day.

Yesterday, Frodo, my daughter’s cat, went to live with her. She was able to get an apartment that accepted animals. Frodo lived with me and D for over a year. And while he was a frequent pain in my arse, I’m still feeling somewhat of a loss today. The house is very quiet. He is a very vocal cat. He even bossed my dog, Nyx, around. Frodo certainly has a lot of personality. But now his toys and belongings are all gone. It was like having a little one here. I hope he will make the adjustment okay. 

I guess I’m feeling a little melancholy because of my physical pain (of which I’m so very tired of) and our missing family member. So Nyx and I ventured outside.  We walked out to our fencerow of wildflowers. The view lifted my spirits. So beautiful.

I’m sitting on my cabin porch as I write. It’s an overcast day. Very still too. The heavy blue-grey clouds are moving west which is odd to me. The birds are singing their songs to one another. Bird conversations are always much louder at the cabin. They almost drown out the sound of the pond fountain. But that’s okay. I will miss their song in the winter. 

No one’s life is perfect. Perfect in the sense of burden-less, stress-less, or even pain-free. I find it helpful to make time to reflect on all the blessings that I do have. God is just so good. 

Recently, though, I was so overwhelmed with pain, I could not even consider time for reflection. I guess that can happen. Pain changes you. It did me anyway. But today is finally that day. And I am grateful.

♥️

Andi