The Fragility of Life

The desire to live is fierce. The body does not want to un-live. Regardless of whether the being is human, animal, or plant, all were blessed with an innate desire to live and thrive. 

But on the other hand, sometimes enough is enough. The body is compromised. The spirit broken. The will to thrive has now become a will to just be without pain, physical and/or mental…whatever that entails and whatever the source of pain. 

There is often a fine line between living and…not. Sometimes hard decisions have to be made. Even for those in the animal kingdom. 

Today was that day.

A hard decision had to be made. 

I don’t like playing God by taking a life nor do I want to carry the heavy question of did I do the right thing for the rest of my life. 

6:45 pm

Tears are shed. Crystal is gone. And an emptiness has been created in our hearts and home.

Death is a part of life. Becoming a pet owner means you accept death along with all the fun. Acceptance doesn’t make it any easier. Even with an animal who challenged you on many levels, as Crystal did with me. Now all those moments seem pretty petty. 

Watching someone or something suffer is most difficult. It’s the most hopeless, painful feeling imaginable. Yes, even with a dog that irritated me. I will never get used to it. Death always seems like a long way off. Something that happens to other people. But death shows no mercy or partiality. 

My daughter is hurting tonight as Crystal was her dog. She’s had her for 10+ years. When she moved, I had to take Crystal with me. Regardless, this was most difficult for my girl. 

The will to live is strong, yet oh, so very fragile. I will not question God’s design. I will just continue to learn from every tough experience to become a better, more compassionate person. 

Goodbye Crystal. You gave us some good laughs. 

I love you, my daughter, Mattea. 

♥️

Andi