As The Dust Begins to Settle

The past eleven months with D have been a whirlwind of events and changes. Life-changing events. Not to mention all that transpired last year prior to our meeting. Life moved fast from one moment to the next. One event to the next. Change after change. I’ve barely been able to digest it all. 

But here I am in this moment now. I look back in wonder of it all. The timing. The work that was accomplished. The confidence and strength found in this man I fondly call D. And the love that brought me here to this place I now call home. 

And as the dust begins to settle, I look ahead at all that is before us. And I am grateful. 

I got out my feather duster and as I went room by room, lightly running those feathers over each individual piece of furniture and decor, I see how well our treasures blend together. As the duster touched each of D’s paintings hung throughout the house, I felt even closer to him as they represent our shared love for the mountains, lakes, and wildlife. 

I guess cleaning shouldn’t be viewed so much as a chore but a way to count blessings.

As the dust begins to settle, and I question why and how of all the good that has happened to me, D reminds me of his words many months ago. 

I had forgotten his words and all the dreams he said would happen. But then words are often said to sooth a moment.

But D prayerfully, and lovingly, made every one of those dreams a realty. Our reality. His words were not words to sooth a moment. His words were words of action and grounded in prayer.

“Remember? I told you all this would happen.” 

I have this little metal sign in our office and when I would get overwhelmed with the fast moving pace, he would gently tell me “every little thing is gonna be alright”.

It was. And it is. 

As the dust begins to settle a heaviness is lifting from my heart and soul. The weight of worry is turning to trust. Trust that this man truly loves me. Trust that his words are more than just words. Trust that he will do his best to keep me safe. Trust that he won’t let me do life alone. 

As the dust settles, I am breathing lighter. I am filled with excitement. My heart is wonderfully filled. And I count my blessings.

♥️

Andi

Photos: A few of D’s paintings; cropped to respect his privacy.