Just So Much

Just so much has taken place in a very short period of time. Many life-changing events have kept my head spinning. My brain has been sorting, pitching, filing away, and coming to terms with an array of information and emotion. Just so much.

For those who know me personally, know I have difficulty when I am overloaded and overwhelmed. D has seen my stress and anxiety on a few occasions now. And I am just beginning to realize that my children saw the same more times than they should have throughout the years. I should have been a stronger, more together mom. For that I am remorseful. 

Not that I turn wicked or anything. But I get short. And I get upset. Not sure when I failed the class on Life’s Coping Skills, but I did.

Yesterday morning made me realize this all the more when I had a slight meltdown. Something didn’t go smoothly at first and I thought it was the end of the world. But D was controlled. He spoke calmly. Rationally. He was patient. And the whole situation was reversed. Everything turned out great and exactly as it should have. 

Even with just so much (and all at once), I should have/ could have handled the situation better. There’s almost always an answer or solution to any problem if handled correctly and with a clear head. Thinking before reacting. 

So now since I understand this more fully, it’s time to settle down and find peace. Life won’t always be easy but it doesn’t need to be as complex as I tend to make it. 

I am blessed beyond measure and that should override any negativity that pops up in daily living. God is just so good.

I married a beautiful man. My house sold in two days for exactly what I asked for. Everything is unpacked and organized here in my new home. I am retired. I am close with my kids. My kids love D and his family. And I see the blessings of having D (and his family) in my life every.single.day. 

So when just so much happens in life try to remain calm because the good will outshine the bad, if…you allow it. 

Lesson learned. ♥️

Andi