Feeling Short-er

I got up this morning and went to let Nyx out and make coffee. And when I was walking around my kitchen I felt…well…short. Short as in un-tall. What’s up with that? No one was with me yet I felt short in comparison to everything around me. The cabinets, the counters, the fridge.

I’ve always been 5’10”. I think since kindergarten. Well, maybe not kindergarten but I always felt tall and towered over the boys throughout our school years. Especially the ones I liked.

When I was in junior high school in Waukegan, Illinois, periodically the gym teachers would combine the girls and boys classes for dancing. As awkward as it was at that age and because of my height, it was still exciting for this young girl. Would I be picked or would I be assigned someone?

Finding clothes that fit wasn’t easy. Sleeves and pant legs were always too short. Summers were great though because everything was really short in the ‘70’s and at that time I could pull it off.

I actually grew to love my height. The clothes manufacturers began designing clothes for tall women. Boys finally caught up to me and some even passed me up. So it all worked out.

But as time goes on the body changes. Even if you work hard at trying to maintain, it still changes. And today I feel short-er.

Several years ago, a nurse measured me at 5’9.5”. Okay. I’ll accept a half inch loss. But in May of this year the nurse measured me at 5’8”.

What…?

You’re 5, 8.

No, I’m 5, 9 and a half.

No, you’re 5, 8.

No, I’m not.

You’re 5, 8.

5, 9 and a half.

5, 8.

No, way.

Yes, way.

(Whisper behind her back…5, 9 and a half.)

I’m not sure how I feel about this. Please note that I have nothing against being short or short-er, but I finally had made peace with being tall after years of feeling like Sasquash. I do have an inversion table so maybe it’s time to utilize it. I’ll never be 5’10” again and that’s okay. But 5’8”…that’s kinda pushing it.

Regardless of how tall I actually am, I am feeling short this morning. And it feels both okay and weird at the same time.

Just sharing my silly thought with you this morning. Be grateful of who you are no matter what your height, or weight.

You are enough. ♥️

Andi