This Mountain Before Me

I am trying my hardest to put a plan together. I am asking God to open doors and show me which ones to enter. (Do you know how many doors I’ve entered in my adulthood thinking they were part of God’s plan only to find out they were the wrong ones? I’ve paid dearly for some of those opened doors.) I’m just not good at this! How does one plan AND allow God to lead? How does one know if it’s Door #1 or Door #3? I’m at a loss….

Today was an exceptionally challenging and hard day at work. I don’t mind telling you that I am greatly discouraged. But I need this job and truthfully, I believe God led me here. But what is in His plan for me here and why is everything so hard for me if this is where I’m supposed to be? I just don’t get it.

Then I come home to a ton of work. There is much that must be done in order to sell this place and I am overwhelmed.

The mountain before me….

Where exactly do I belong? I am a square block trying to squeeze into a triangle. I just don’t fit. I’m so restless tonight. How do I get it all done? How do I know if one move is God’s will over another? What was the purpose of being led to this job, and when will I know when that purpose is fulfilled? What about other aspects of my life? How do I know when it’s time to move on or when I should just sit still?

Oh…this mountain before me is just so great.

This is my state of mind currently. How does one person manage this? How can I find some peace tonight? I need peace. How do I get this all done?

God, please show me the right path. ♥️

Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day with more insight as to what I need to be doing and how to do it.

Andi