To Put Things in Perspective

I received texts from my youngest daughter, Mattea, earlier this week. She is the one who just moved out on Monday.

I was questioning whether I prepared her well enough for life without me. These texts have helped me to put things in perspective. Here’s what she wrote:

I am my own person. I’m making my own path. You’ve made me a God-fearing strong, independent, young woman. Nothing to feel guilty about. You did your teaching when I was young. I am older and now it’s up to me to decide my future, my fate, and my path. You did your teaching. Not saying that I still can’t learn things from you, but I am old enough to decide where I want to go and who I want to be.

It’s just gonna be hard mom, specially with us and our history. But we both know it’s time for us to go our separate ways. We are still together. We’re still what we’ve gone through.

You did all your teaching and your kids are grown now. It’s hard, but you have to sit back and watch us make our own decisions, fall down and get back up. It’s all part of life. I’m sure there were many times when your mom wanted to pick you up, hold you, and carry you everywhere and protect you…but she knew she couldn’t.

Again, sometimes we can learn so much from our children. I find comfort in hearing how rational she is. I’m just a mom who is not ready to quite admit her babies are grown. That does make me somewhat irrational. Maybe I need to have more faith in the job I did in raising them. I always felt I failed them, but everyday they prove me wrong.

My life is full. Not empty like I was feeling earlier this week. My kids are such blessings. And now, my world has opened up even further with D’s beautiful family. It’s wonderful getting to know these good people.

Yes, I am truly blessed. There’s nothing to be sad about today, especially since my new chapter, my new adventure, begins…right…now. ♥️

Andi