I’m at the airport and heading back to Florida.
I cannot even explain what the last several weeks have been like. The ups and downs, twists and turns of Dad’s progresses and decline. My mind drifts in and out of clouds. I drive here and there and cannot remember a single thing about my drive. Details elude me.
Mom passed away suddenly, and then a year later, my best friend passed in her sleep as well. I didn’t get to say goodbye to either. That hurt incredibly bad. I wondered if I got ripped off by not saying goodbye and telling them I loved them one more time. But did I? They both knew our relationships were solid and full of love. There’s great peace in that.
As I sit here in anticipation of my flight and of the days that lie ahead, I am filled with such grief. Grief that has lasted weeks. This isn’t even the grief. Maybe the most difficult part is that our relationship suffered through years and I didn’t get to speak with him one-on-one before he was sedated. There is such loss for me even though I’ve had this time with him.
I miss my dad. I will hopefully see him tonight and then again tomorrow. There are no longer changes but he is comfortable. I will talk to him again and tell him all that weighs so heavily on my heart. ♥️
Andi
Coffee with Andi 
I’m sorry.
My dad died suddenly. Come to find out he had an ulcer that ruptured and he bled internally. My mom died a year later of cancer.
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I’m so very sorry to hear this. 😦
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Don’t be. It was a hard lesson to learn but I wouldn’t be who I am today if they were still here.
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Currently, I am in an Uber and I’m looking at the ocean. Dad found great peace here. I will find it too and bond with my sister.
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That’s awesome! You have someone to reflect with. And a place where you can reminisce and think. You’re blessed!
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I am. 💕
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And you a goofball that’s 20 years younger than you who has a little understanding what y’all are going through. I won’t keep you but I’m around if you ever needed to talk or take your mind off of things.
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Thanks a bunch, John. ☀️
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You’re welcome Andi!
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My oldest is about your age then. I was 21 when I had him.
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I’m young enough to be your son yet old enough to be mosts dad 🤦♂️
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LOL
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Bad thing about it is that old people think I’m still young (I dont feel young)
Young people think i crossed the Potomac….
I can’t win at this age.
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Embrace your age. Soon you will be 60 wishing you were 40.
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Yes ma’am. But embrace it. 60 is a blessing. Some would’ve loved to see it.
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Touché. Yes, 60 is a blessing. (I’m “almost” 60. 😬)
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Well… awesomeness is ageless. So, you’re good 😁
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LOL – thanks
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You’re most welcome 😜
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He will hear you. ❤
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How do you know he can’t hear you? What would it hurt if you talk to him now?
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I plan on talking to him. ♥️
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Prayers that your time together heals the past. May peace fill you both. Safe travels.
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